the fake smile to show everyone this weekend. i just don’t feel like myself. i feel fat and horrible. I have to keep telling myself that puking is not the answer; food is my friend.
my weight gain is not making me feel better either. It’s probably the stress and lack of sleep. and the binges (stupid hormones and cravings)
my saying right now “keep the food down, no matter how much crap i ate, there is no need to puke…there’s no need to puke”
totally tearing up because of this.